so this is it...

behold, a turning point in my life has arrived.

I hope I'm ready to embrace it.

listen

i heard the music last night.

i was in the bathroom, taking my usual whiz before bedtime. my urine flow gently splashed the toilet water while i habitually sniffed to keep any mucus from dripping out of my nose. simultaneously, a low-pitched humming sound from the light bulbs softly resonated throughout the room.

i cannot describe what i heard as a whole, but i do know that it somehow made sense. that somehow, i heard not just a bunch of random sounds, but a work of art that transcends the theoretical, logical, and creative processes of musical composition.

and i'd thought for the longest time that the concept of "hearing the music" in August Rush was ridiculously far-fetched...or maybe i'm just crazy.

too bad this moment had to come while i was peeing. how silly!

It shouldn't be funny.

I think that people laugh at the sin in this world because they're hesitant to see the reality of things.

Intoxication is a good example. People find humor in watching a drunkard wobble around a room after taking too many shots of tequila. But if you think about it, this scenario is not really a laughing matter; I mean, the drunkard's life is in danger, and his/her life could be lost in a finger snap.

Of course, no one wants to be a killjoy and point out such a hazard. Then it's just best to brush the matter aside by laughing at it.

I often find myself reacting like this. It kills me inside, though, because I know what I'm doing is completely inhumane. If I really cared for that drunkard, I would warn him of his/her recklessness, and that he needs to change his/her ways before something terrible happens.

But I don't want to be the killjoy of the crowd.

One day, I hope I'll have the strength to disregard my outer image and say what my heart has been screaming at me for all these years.

Getting Nowhere

It's pointless to have a blog if you never feel like writing anything.

I should do something about that.

True Story (LML)

Yesterday, I was at at a softball tournament. While I was standing around, waiting to play, a group of pretty good-looking girls walked by me. I overheard one of them say, "Number 15 is cute." I was wearing the number 15 jersey. LML